Sunday, February 19, 2012


What a whirlwind couple of weeks!  Our lives have been turned upside down and inside out recently.  The emergency room has become our most popular stop lately.  My husband has had trouble the last couple of months and ended up in the ER last week.  Thank God the diagnosis was anxiety and everything checked out ok with regards to his heart, so far.  He is still set up to see the cardiologist and get a thorough check out so prayers for this situation definetly. 
And I woke up Tuesday with a twinge of pain in my left lower abdomen.  This pain gradually got worse over the course of several minutes and became a sharp, stabbing, constant pain that was unrelieved by any movement or change in position.  I walked from the bedroom to the bathroom and back again.  I tried to lay down, I tried to stand up, I tried to walk, I tried everything with no relief.  Nausea kicked in so I knew that trying to take medicine was out of the question unless I wanted to see it again.  So, high ho, high ho, off to the ER we go.  Turns out I have an 8mm kidney stone sitting in the tube just outside my kidney.  The chances of this thing passing are slim and the option I have is surgery to break it up and put a stent in my kidney.  Now, I don't mind the break it up part, I can deal with that just fine.  It's the stent from my kidney to my bladder that is the problem.  I know I should probably just not worry about it but, it is a major organ.  I have about 48 hours left to pass this thing on my own still so, we'll see what happens.
In church this morning our pastor talked about facing crisis.  Do we face it with fear or with faith?  I was very emotional this morning during our services and found myself tearing up during our song service.  A few hymns into the morning I trekked to the bathroom choking back the tears and frustration.  I am scared and have so many questions.  Being a nurse has not made this process easier because I have seen the other side of the situation and all the complications that can go along with a so called "simple" procedure.  I was feeling very sorry for myself, frustrated and afraid.  Needless to say, this sermon hit home and it hit hard.  So many times I have said how I don't want to go through all this and I am too busy to be sick or have surgery.  This may be God's way of saying slow down and trust me.  Psalm 122:8 tells us "For the sake of my brothers and friends, I will say, 'Peace be within you.'"  I am learning that satan will sneak into our lives wherever and whenever he can, and that I can handle this situation with God's help.  I have spent a lot of time in prayer and I am holding on to the fact that how ever the situation turns out, it is God's will for my life. 
Blessings to all,


  1. A dear friend out here has several & is 28 wks pregnant. She takes large dose of kelp pills.
    Praying for relief for u.

  2. Bless her heart. I will pray for her too. I can't imagine dealing with stones and being pregnant. What a tough situation! I will check out the kelp pills, I am game for anything that will help. Thank you for your prayers and support.